What?

after such a great night with lots of insight and advices, i still don't know what i should do. about myself. i just don't know what to do with myself.

and all things must pass.

tell me who am i, without you by my side?

Saluting George Harrison

I don't know why nobody told you
How to unfold your love
I don't know how someone controlled you
They bought and sold you

I spent my morning watching one of his interviews where he spoke about spirituality and how everyone was chasing it, but somehow they don't want to know what happens after death. In the coming minutes he mentioned how he was yearning to meet someone impressive during his Beatles times. Then he met Ravi Shaktar and he found his spirituality, his answers and musical inspiration through him, Eastern philosophy.

I don't know what happened to you but you were a truly impressive person. I hope somehow you are in peace.




P.S: I also learned that Martin Scorsese directed a documentary about this life. I plan on watching it soon with a glass of wine in his honor.

thoughts about stuff

it's the idea, not the person that I was very much into. the idea that such a person exists on the face of the earth. everything went as I hoped it would. but wrong place, wrong time(no time). so yeah i'm kind of accepting this fact.

"maybe i'm too busy being yours to fall for somebody new" said alex turner. well not anymore. let's get over it already.

my dreams are the worst. especially when they are wonderful, and then I wake up to realize they aren't real.

..that I'm not holding a hand I want to, and I should have when I had the chance.
..that I should have hugged that person when I had the chance.

and then I realize I'm just hugging my pillow.

500 Days of Summer

+ I just... I just woke up one day and I knew. 
-Knew what? 
+ ...What I was never sure of with you.

The movie I watched twice. First time in cinema with my then boyfriend, second time -now, a long time after breaking up with him. I remember the first time, I was feeling very sorry for Tom. I never understood what Summer was thinking. I never understood what was wrong in their relationship.

Second time, I got it. She wanted to be independent. She clearly told him that she doesn't want a relationship with him. I still believe that she could have handled the situation differently, but she basically was right.
And he was basically wrong to ignore all the times she told him.

Esinti

Eskiden olup bittiklerini bugun o kadar da takmamak, hatta unutmak ne acayip biseymis. Zaman boyle bisey sanirim.
Ha bir yerde gorunce gozun iki saniyeden fazla takili kalir, ama olur o kadar.

Hbd babe!