Halo

When our worlds they fall apart,
When the walls come tumbling in,
Though we may deserve it,
It will be worth it.

If dave says so, i believe it will be so. :)

Life is not fair.

How can a guy as hot as Paul Ryan be republican?
How can Neil Patrick Harris be gay?
How can Brad Pitt and Dave Gahan be married and 50?
How can Daniel Radcliffe live in England?
How can Noel Gallagher & Thom Yorke be so goddamn arrogant?
How can Scarlett Johanson be so dumb and seen as hot anyway?
How can John Krasinski be married?



And how can Alex Turner be so fucking awesome?  pft.

i'm going where the cold wind blows.

Seth McFarlane awesomeness.

This guy is a comedian, does animations which are famous all over the world, has written a script which was a very successful hollywood movie... and sings this fucking well.

you want what you can't have (ya da 4S kurali)

Kizlarin en acayip huy(?)larindan biridir bu. Nerede elde edemeyecegin bir obje var, onu istemeye baslarsin. Bugun bu objemizi bir erkek yaparak iliskilerden konusacagim(her zamanki gibi).

Kizlar kendisine ilgi gostermeyen / elde edemedikleri erkege bayilir. Ama bunlar da ikiye ayilir tabi. Tamamen kendilerini sallamayan erkeklere bayilan kizlar ve hic ilgi gostermemekle gostermek arasinda gidip gelen erkeklere bayilan kizlar. Ilk kategori tamamen 4S kuralinin pratik halidir (bilmeyenler icin bkz: seversen sikilir, sikersen sevilirsin), bir cesit badboy evcillestirmesi fantazisi olan kizlarin tercihi. Bu kizlar "bad boy mu, good guy mi?" sorusuna bad boy diye cevap verenler, erkeklerin cok yakindigi pic erkekciler bunlar iste. Ikinci kategori de tamamen once kendine ilgi gosteren erkegin ilgisine alisip, sonra yoklugunda "ah nereye gitti o ilgi?" diye dovunenlerden olusur. Takintili kizlarda bunu basarili uygulayan erkek, kizin gozunde nerelere ciktigini tahmin bile edemez. Bi sicak, bi soguk dengesini iyi kuran erkek, bildiginiz playboy erkektir bu arada. Ama ozellikle bu ilgi dengesini tutturmak zordur; cunku her kiza gore degisir.

Iki kizin da ortak yonu, elde ettigi anda o erkegi artik istememesidir. Asil sevdigi sey o "thrill of chase"tir cunku (takibin verdigi heyecan?). Zaten elde ettiginde chase de bitmistir, oyun da, heyecan da.. kiz yeni bir heyecan arayisina cikar.

Bu yazinin ana fikri, iki kizi da al koy cuvala, salla salla vur duvara.

Kizlarin garip duygulari volume 2'yi okudunuz.

Nostalji

Kucukken siklikla arabayla uzun yol yapardik. Annemin, babamin ve benim farkli muzik tercihlerimiz oldugundan 'arabada ne dinlenecek?' sikintisi olurdu. Annem Suavi gibi abuk sabuk adamlar cikarir, babamla ben cildiririz. Babam bu sefer baslar Chris Rea. Zamanin eski rapcilerinden ben ise tabi ki Eminem dinlerdim, annemler de o bagiris cagiris halinden bikarlardi haliyle. Arada annemler Tolga Candar ve Zulfu Livaneli'de falan anlasirlardi, benim icin yine bi fiyaskoydu tabi. Butun ailenin uzerinde anlastigi tek kisi ve tek cd, Nilufer - Sensiz Olmaz idi. Sanirim bundan dolayi, bu yasima geldim ama eski sarkilar soz konusu oldu mu, benim icin Nilufer'dir bu isin piri. Ozellikle Sensiz Olmaz cd'si tabi.





Ilk bes sarki oldukca ozgun ve gercekten mukemmeller; gerek beste, gerek vokal olsun. Tabi diger yarisi biraz da Nilufer'in buyuklerine ozendigi sarkilardan olusur aslinda. ABBA'nin "Winner Takes It All"unun bir Turkce cover'i olan "Yalnizligimla Basbasa" haricinde onlari da oldukca severim aslinda. Yine de ilk bes sarki olan Sensiz Olmaz, Taa Uzak Yollardan, Hatiralar Hayal Oldu, Pisman Etme ve Sende Gozum Yok'un yeri baska.

Daha da ayirmak gerekirse, Hatiralar Hayal Oldu her zaman baska bir yerde olmustur benim icin. Nilufer'in sesindeki o gucu, aciyi, hirsi hissetmemek icin bayagi sagir olmak lazim. Bu kadar guclu bir vokal olmak cok istemisimdir her zaman, dolayisiyla kucukken bu sarkiyi soylemeye cok calismisimdir. :)




Bir diger inanilmaz sarkisi da albume adini veren Sensiz Olmaz'dir. Sarkinin duygusunu cok iyi verdigini dusunuyorum. Teoman'la yeniden soyledigi de fena degil, ama o orjinalinin guclu vokalleri yok, sanki tamamen baska bir sarki olmus gibi.




Annem bir imza gununde Nilufer'e bu cd'sini imzalatmisti, bir de bu ailenin hep beraber dinledigi cd olmasi meselesini anlatmis :) Simdi beraber dinledigimiz o cd'nin ustunde "Dilek, Cemal ve Naz'a Sevgilerle..." yaziyor :)

melankoli.

In Your Room

In your room
Where time stands still
Or moves at your will..

Will you let the morning come soon
Or will you leave me lying here?

In your favourite darkness,
Your favourite half-light,
Your favourite consciousness,
Your favourite slave.

In your room
Where souls disappear
Only you exist here

Will you lead me to your armchair,
Or leave me lying here?

Your favourite innocence,
Your favourite prize,
Your favourite smile,
Your favourite slave.

I'm hanging on your words,
living on your breath,
feeling with your skin.
Will I always be here?

In your room
Your burning eyes
Cause flames to arise

Will you let the fire die down soon,
Or will I always be here?

Your favourite passion,
Your favourite game,
Your favourite mirror,
Your favourite slave.

I'm hanging on your words,
living on your breath,
feeling with your skin.
Will I always be here?


I love every word of this song so much that I didn't know where to quote, so I quoted them all. I feel so relaxed and so deep in shit, at the same time, when I listen to this song. This is one of my favorite songs ever, and I'm picky - and I picked this because I can feel the emotions going through my spine, my hands, my hair, all over my body every time I hear it.
To be in love so desperately, that your life is in his every move, every breath, every little detail - and the reward is to be his favorite slave. I want to have that. Some time. Not now.

Somebody said on youtube about this song "Stabs you in your heart, rips your spine off, cuts your fingers, crushes your kneecaps, but for f*ck sake, it still sounds awsome, louder equals better!" To add on it, I would suggest some cuffs. Definitely. At least for the sake of the perfect opening bass of the song.

So let's go with Dave's incredible voice: "In your room, where time stands still, or moves at your will.."

itiraf.com

I'm a social assassin and disaster.

the perfect guy

The other day I saw a status saying: 'I will be single my whole life because of Chuck Bass, since he raised my expectations of a guy, he is just on the verge of cockiness and self-esteem, bla bla bla'
You like a guy that can crush your or other people's feelings just for his own sake? Good fucking luck with that.
Not to mention that that character tried to rape somebody on a roof.

I would think that I would want to get a smarter guy than him. (In reference to my sapiosexual blog post) Someone who cares about whatever stupid details you are telling him. Someone so enjoyable that you don't need another person while you are with him. Someone who will love you and would not put anything ahead his life except you. Which is kind of hard to find at our age, I think. Oh well I digress. And who has six packs, rocking abs, wide shoulders, strong arms and shit, you know, same old same old. Seems like my hormones are in motion.

This goes without saying but I always picture myself as an old, alone lady with lots of cats.

obsession

I have a lot of those. To some tv series, to a person's attitude, to cleaning, to things going my way.

My life span is shortening.

The chapter

a big chapter of my life is over. there's nothing left to say.

Bad lip reading

I have to say I checked out the US Elections more than I should. I have been keeping tracks of the two major candidates for a couple of months now, and it's not hard to say that Mitt Romney is quite an asshole, so I'm glad that Obama won. Anyway, past is past. The presidential and vice-presidential(?) debates are over, and they did some lip readings over these guys and dubbed them, it's pretty hilarious:





Hhahahahah much more awesome one is about Joe Biden:

Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough, i don't know why.

"even when you know the way it's gonna blow, it's hard to get around the wind."

Can we be saved?

I would give anything
But for the grace of God I'm here and still aware
We know the end is overrated
We've become the walls we raise
We don't believe enough but we still cared
Standing on the edge without a prayer

So come on, come on it's all we got
Our hands are full, our lives are not
The loose affiliation with the real
We're sleeping at the wheel

All of the time we've lost
All of the love we gave
And now these hands are tied
I can't help thinking
That I was in the days
I was losing my place
I was screaming out at everything
Waiting for the walls to come down 
Before my moments starts to fade
But everything that's perfect falls away

So come on, come on we can be saved
The lives we live, the wars we wage
When everyone just tells us how to feel
We're sleeping at the wheel

When..

When I don't bitch and whine about how much work I have, it doesn't mean that I'm not busy.

When I choose not to speak when I'm angry, it doesn't mean I accept every little shit that's going on around me.

When I don't brag about the things I have done, it doesn't mean I did nothing.

When I don't expose that you are a liar, it doesn't mean that I buy all that bullshit you tell me.

When I treat you kindly as we see each other, it doesn't mean I forgot everything you have done to me.

When I choose not to spoil the mood, it doesn't mean I forgave you.



I need to be more expressive. People don't get kindness.

Jenna Marbles!

She is one of those youtube viral video makers, and in my opinion she is the best. She is an entertainer to say the least, I follow her videos for about 6 months now. She is brave as fuck, she doesn't care what everybody thinks about her. She puts her silly videos, sexy videos, yelling videos and she does this while being hilarious(& generally sarcastic)!

Oh and she loves her dogs. LOVES them.

This is the kind of video she does usually:




But here is what I wanted to share today: the feminine rap.




haha I looove Jenna and her sexual wednesdays (the day she uploads her videos don't get all dickbrained).

Bool

The things and people around me shall be boolean type from now on!

true or false. black or white.

This week's top 5!

The songs that I can't seem to stop listening to this week.

1. Madonna - You'll See

Such an empowering song! May be one of her best. I can't seem to get enough of it this week. I even looked for the covers, and nothing was as good as the original.

2. George Michael - Freedom

Another empowering song about breaking free, getting rid of your chains..etc. Love it!



3. The Pierces - To The Grave

The tranquility of their voices take me to another dimension, where I am O.K. with everything that's going around me.



4. The Strokes - Two Kinds of Happiness

Don't waste your heart.




5. Rihanna - Birthday Cake

It's dirty, it's freaky and it's fun. What's not to like? Well, it's a bit short :)

As a side note to what I said earlier..

-Daniel who would you turn gay for?
-Albert Einstein, because I think intelligence is sexy.

:)

Sapiosexual

Today I learned about this word.

meaning: A form of sexual orientation characterized by a strong attraction to intelligence in others, often regardless of gender and/or conventional attractiveness. 

I don't know if "regardless of gender" part applies, but the other part definitely does. I'm deeply attracted to intelligent people. Intelligence is the first prerequisite of being sexy. No matter how much a person is attractive, if he's empty as a nutshell, he's not attractive anymore from my point of view. That's why the first 5 minutes of conversation with a guy is crucial for understanding a lot of things!!But more on that later.

It is not always sexual, I just admire intelligent people and want to be around them. That's why a lot of people were surprised when I said I liked our calculus professor. :) I was also quite keen on our linear algebra professor. Nowadays my thesis advisor is quite a genius himself :)

Maybe that's what being an engineer does to you. Then again, I also don't have stupid friends. I run away from stupid people like plague. I think being intelligent and knowledgeable is like a prerequisite for people in my life. If my friends don't know enough about math,science or geeky stuff, then they have a higher eq to balance that part of me. Basically I like people who I can learn from, with whom I can have deep conversations for hours.

 I'm deeply thankful to God that I'm not surrounded by stupid people.

This is how you're reminded to me

I was reading a Bieber fan's twitter page, just because she said Bieber is better than Kurt Cobain or stg like that, so I wanted to check out who this idiot/troll was.

Then I saw a tweet like this: I'm 99% sure that I'll meet with Justin one day and date him. Delusions of grandeur. Not a moment passed before I realized: I was like that girl once! Those tears, false hopes, checking what he's doing everyday, making a photo/news collection of him, thinking he is the one and only man for you... I had complicated feelings at that moment, I still don't know how I feel about it. I just know that how that girl will feel one day when she realizes she has forgotten about him, as the life moves along. Then she will see another girl having a crush on someone else, then she will remember how she was before.

Life is quite weird and interesting :)

The Queen izlenimlerim!

Şu dünyada şarkı söylemekten sonra en sevdiğim şey konsere gitmek sanırsam. Ve şanslıyım ki, bu sevdiğim şeyi Milano'da yaşamaya başladığımdan beri bol bol yapabiliyorum. Dün gece de San Siro stadyumunda kraliçe Madonna'nın şovunu şu dünya gözüyle gördüm. Sonuçta dediğim şey şuydu: Bir dahakine parayı basıp önden izleyeceğim!

Queen'imizdeki performans neydi öyle, atla, zıpla, dans et, yerlere yat, ARTI bunların hepsini o ayak düşmanı topuklu ayakkabılarla yaptı.

İlk act Girl Gone Wild, Revolver ve Gang Bang'le sevgililerini öldürdü gitti. Papa Don't Preach, Hung Up ve I Don't Give A ile kapattı.

İkinci act'i Express Yourself'le açtı, birden Lady Gaga'nın Born This Way'ine dönüş yapması, iyi bir kapaktı açıkçası. (bkz: birkaç ay öncesi Lady Gaga'nın Born This Way'i Express Yourself'ten çaktığı tartışmaları)  Sonrası Give Me All Your Luvin', Turn Up the Radio, Open Your Heart ve Masterpiece idi. Güzeldi güzeldi de üçüncü act'in güzelliğinden dolayı bu kısmı hafızamdan silmişim!

Üçüncü act seks ve seksilik üzerineydi. Öncelikle Justify My Love eşliğinde dansçılarının danslarıyla başladı. Justify My Love yıllarca sansürlü kalmış klibiyle meşhurdur. Madonna'nın da çok üstün şarkılarından biridir kanımca. Sonra sahneye Madonna girdi, Vogue ile! En sevdiğim şarkılarından biri Vogue küçüklüğümden beri. O şarkı çok zamansız gelir bana, şimdi de dinlenir 40 sene sonra da. Her seferinde dans etmek istersin. Strike a pose! Sonra Candy Shop. Bu kadın 55 değil zamansız! Araya "Erotica" başarıyla sıkıştırılmıştı. Seksi gösterilerden falan bahsetmiyorum, bir ara bir kadını öptü orada kraliçe. Human Nature desen, onu da Madonna zaten seks ve kendisi hakkında yorum yapanlara cevap olarak yazmıştı. Daha sonra bir Like A Virgin geldi ki, slow ve çok etkileyiciydi, italyanlar kadının bir yerini açmasını bekledikleri için sürekli bağırmasalar daha çok zevk alacaktım. Bu bölüm inanılmazdı!

Geldik son bölüme. "I'm addicted to your love" deyip aşka deri dönüş yaptı. Sonra günahkar benliğiyle barış içerisinde olduğunu söyledi "I'm a Sinner"la. Bir sonraki bir kilise korosuyla söylediği Like A Prayer'dı. Zaten bütün stadyum da bir ağızdan söyledi, koroya çok ihtiyaç olmadan. Celebration zamanı geldiğinde, bizi kendine hayran bırakıp gitti bu kadın.


Koreografiden ayrı bahsetmek lazım, Cirque de Soleil'in yönetmeniyle çalışmış, anlatacak kelimeler bulamıyorum, bir video benim yerime konuşsun:

Derbeder Erkek

Aşkından/pişmanlıktan/herhangi bir şeyden derbeder olmuş erkek çekiciliği. Evet benim ve etrafımdaki bir çok kız için, o yanıp tutuşan, şarkılar yazan, ağlayan adam, gerçekte null değerindedir. Ancak kendisinden bir dizide, bir şarkıda veya bir filmde görülebilir. O şarkıyı söyleyen adam veyahut o rolü oynayan oyuncuda ise birden seksilik patlaması olur.

Neden mi? Kızlardaki acıma ve "aman tanrım ölüyor zavallıcak" duygusu ön plana çıkar önce. Çünkü o erkek kendilerine benzer duyguları hissediyordur, ve malum, bu erkekler için çok nadirdir. Duyguları olan erkek daha seksidir. Bir kız adına savaş verebilen, onun için gözyaşı dökmekten çekinmeyen erkek, en sonunda kazanan olacaktır. Kız o erkeği sarıp sarmalayıp eve koyup, bir daha hiç çıkarmamak ister.

Bu duyguyu besleyen ise aslen kızların kendisi uğruna savaş verilmesini istemesi içgüdüsünden kaynaklanır. Nasıl kendileri adına iki erkeğin kavga etmesini izlemekten veya kıskanılmaktan hoşlanıyorlarsa, o acı çeken erkek de hoşlanılasıdır; çünkü bir kız yüzünden bu haldedir genelde.

Bu fenomenden yararlanan dizilerdeki karakterlerden örnek: Fatmagül'ün suçu ne?'de Vural'ı oynayan Buğra Gülsoy. Ne seksiydi o adam, vicdan azabından ölüyorken. Yandık bittik, Kuzey Güney'i izlemeye başladık. Şimdi seksapel sıfır; çünkü duygularından beslenmiyor artık. Başka karakter örneklerine gelirsek Kuzey/Güney'de Kuzey, Nip/Tuck'ta Christian Troy(o biraz piç erkeği evcilleştirme içgüdüsünden de geliyor), Skins'den Sid ve özlemli şarkı yazan neredeyse her erkek.

Yani bunu iyi kullanmayı beceremeyen erkekler olmadı mı oldu: Fatmagül'ün Suçu Ne?'de Kerim. Belki de oyunculuğunu inandırıcı bulmadığım içindir; ama o kadar kız için ölüp bitmesine rağmen tiksindirdi beni.

"Kızların Garip Duyguları: Volume 1"ı okudunuz.

Larry David vs. Jay Leno!

Larry David is my favorite comedian(probably) and Jay Leno is my least favorite comedian(probably) - he's just not funny at all. I don't want to describe the clip because it speaks for itself- it's just fucking awesome!

tu.

I cannot believe the woman who sung that song is Shakira now. That woman has passion, powerful music, incredible lyrics and an amazing voice. That woman in my opinion created one of the best albums ever, "Donde Estan Los Ladrones?" translates as "Where are the thieves?". This is a clip of an MTV Unplugged Session from 1999- remember how popular those were? It has to be one of her best live performances.

I would recommend everyone to take a look at aforementioned album in particular, Shakira's early work and her lyrics. They are quite original and powerful, which is something she doesn't have now.

The translation of the lyrics:
I give you my waist and my lips,
for when you want to kiss,
I give you my madness
and the few neurons they left me

My discolored shoes,
the diary in which I write,
I give even my sighs,
 but don't leave anymore

Because is you, my sun,
the faith with I live
the strongness of my voice
the feet I use to walk.

It is you my love,
my desires to live the goodbye
I don't know how to say
because I will be never able to live without you

If one of these day you would decided to get away from me
I would close every door, so you could never go out
I give you my silence, I give you my nose,
I give you even my bones, but go.

Because is you, my sun,
the faith with I live
the strongness of my voice
the feet I use to walk.
It is you my love, my desires to laugh the goodbye
I don't know how to say because I will be never able to live... ....without you

Bazen bir şeyleri değiştiremezsin, baştan değiştirememişsindir çünkü. Umudu yitirmek yakın mı uzak mı?

505.

my favorite song ever.

Arctic Monkeys has been my favorite band for 6 years now, and I still remember the first time I was aware of the beauty of this song. The lyrics just hung onto my ears: "i'm always just about to go and spoil the surprise/take my hands off of your eyes too soon"... I cannot explain what is special about this song, the feeling it gives me is undescribable. The lyrics, the music or maybe the whole production is just so awesome. I always like the studio version better than the live ones, but nevertheless this is good as well, it also involves Miles Kane(Alex Turner's The Last Shadow Puppets partner).

Başlıyorum!

Yayın hayatıma benim gibiler için başlıyorum, sevdiklerini paylaşmayı sevenler için. Orhan baba gibi bir girizgahım olsa da olay bu. Neyi seviyorsam, neyi aklımın köşesinde bulundurmak istiyorsam ya da başkalarının aklının köşesinde durmaya değer görüyorsam, o var burada. Ecnebice birşeyler de yazar arada.