In fact, I have a bucket list in my head called "A million things I should do before I die".
It's not about death though, it's about the fact that our youth is fleeting, and I'm very afraid of it.
I feel as if I'm not enjoying my best years as much as I should, and some of the people I met in Stockholm actually confirmed my doubts.
"You should listen to your heart more."
Maybe I should, but I'm afraid. Afraid of getting hurt, so I can't put my hand in the fire and feel it. Instead, I feel like I walk around with a fire extinguisher.
But isn't this the time which I'm supposed to get hurt and learn from my experiences?
I'm always running from the time, I know that someday it will catch me, but I want to do as much as I can before it does.
I always feel like I'm going to die young somehow.
See how I started writing this thing, and how I'm finishing it? It starts out as fun, while at the end it gets moody and sad. That's why I only like the beginnings of things. But I turn them that way, so does this mean that a Don Draper actually lives inside me?
Ugh. Enough self-analysis for today.
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